Sunday, June 26, 2011

Cleaning Out the Clutter

For the last few years I've had this feeling. I can't quite describe it, but it's a feeling of unease, there seems to be a void. I've tried to blame everything from my writing, procrastinating, my businesses, and of course my spouse. But in the last few weeks I've come to realize the uneasy feeling is inside me. I can't blame anyone except myself. I've let my life, soul and mind get overrun with clutter.
   I've been trying to fill the void with things, and people, and keeping busy. But I'm finally learning it's okay to just sit down on a Sunday morning (my only complete day off from work), and watch a movie or read a book. I've even stopped making jewelry on Sundays and I'm sort of taking it as a day of rest.
  I'm not going to go into the chats, chapters, blogs, and other things I've gotten myself involved in to fill the void, but I'm going to be cutting back on my "volunteer" work soon too.  I don't mean for this to be a long drawn out post, but it's a sort of cleansing in itself.
  Everyday for the next however-long I'm going to spend 30 minutes to an hour a day purging the clutter from my life. I mean seriously, how many T-shirts, jeans, shorts, and yes, shoes do I really need. And bras for God's sake. I bagged up a small garbage bag of bras today. And as much as I hate to say it, books. I'm going to take a box a day to the Goodwill, and libraries until I feel I'm down to a reasonable number.
  Ideally the physical clutter will help me get rid of the mental clutter that has been building up over the last several years and help me be a happier person. So for every hour I spend de-cluttering my life, I plan to devote 10 minutes (and build from there) to looking inward and finding out what makes me happy and peaceful and try to get back to that place.
  I'm warning everyone here so that if I start spouting off spiritual stuff you don't think I've gone off the deep end.
  So I'll be spending the next few weeks and months making a new space for myself, one with less stuff, less commitments, less stress, and more peace. I really hope clearing the clutter will help me see the light.
  Do you have clutter in the corners (and overflowing) in your life?

2 comments:

  1. Yes, I understand this completely. And spiritual stuff is just fine. Everything helps.

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  2. Hey Marisa. I need to do something to get back to a better place. I'm hoping this will help.

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