Sunday, April 4, 2010

Making Choices

With so many ideas going through my head at any given time, it's difficult to decide which idea to pursue. I know many people who work on several projects at once. When I do this, it's because I'm putting off the project I should be finishing.
I write nearly daily, but I rarely get to THE END or FADE OUT. Is it writer ADD? I don't think so. I really thinks it's my inner critic saying, "You suck. You don't know how to write. I don't care that you have been published in magazines. That was non-fiction, this is fiction."
Then I read incredible authors like Harlan Coben, J.T. Ellison, or Joseph Finder, and I'm sure I'll never be able to write like them.
So it comes down to making choices.
1. Choose to MUTE the inner critic or let it keep me from my dream of being published.
      I'm choosing to do the best I can to use the MUTE button.
2. Choose between Screenplays or Novels.
     I've decided to concentrate on Screenplays, and write novels on the side.
     No wait, I'll concentrate on novels and write Screenplays on the side.
    Fine, I can't decide.
3. Choose to write or not write.
   Here, I have this overwhelming guilt when I write. I should be working on my business marketing to
   grow my business. I should be designing new jewelry, or working on my web site. But for my sanity
   I choose to write. Everyone needs free time, and I choose to write with mine.
I don't want to be one of those people who says, "Oh, yeah, I'm going to write a novel someday." Cuz, I wrote one. And it was an outer critic (an agent) who said my writing was awkward. That will do wonders for a writer's self-esteem. I stopped writing for an entire year. Just ask my critique partner. But I'm over it, sort of.
I've chosen to believe that my writing was awkward, and it takes practice to write well. Reading and writing are what keep me sane, so I choose to continue the insane process of blurting words onto paper.

2 comments:

  1. It's very hard to MUTE that voice. I know I've tried.

    I discovered our TV doesn't actually mute things (produce no sound) when it's on Mute mode. It's not silent; It's just very very quiet.

    That's how I hear the voices now. Sometimes I press the wrong button and IT GETS REALLY F-ING LOUD IN HERE AND I FUMBLE WITH THE REMOTE FOR A BIT UNTIL it settles down again and I can hear myself think.

    Reading brilliant writers to inspire you is just part of the picture you should make for yourself. Yes, you should aspire to the brilliance, but it is also useful - often more so, to read/watch utter crap that got made, to remind yourself, "Damn it, I can write way better than that guy," and "If they made that movie/TV show/novel/web series/play then there's a chance for mine to get made too."

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  2. I love this response. So true that the mute button isn't really mute. Someday I'm hoping my script, novel, book is one to be compared, either good or bad, since it will mean that it got made.

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